Home they brought her warrior dead-Major Sandeep

At school there was this extremely sad and touching poem about a woman whose husband's dead body is brought home after he dies fighting as a soldier for his country. The woman is so bereft with grief that she has absolutely no tears to cry. She simply becomes a lump of stone and refuses to cry no matter how much the neighbors plead with her. At last someone brings her child and places it on her lap and seeing the innocent who will never know his father anymore, she breaks down and cries.

I was reminded of this poem seeing Major Sandeep Unnikrishnan's mom cry next to his dead body. He was killed in the Mumbai terrorist attacks. His father could barely control his emotions when speaking to the reporters about his son. After 2 days the Kerala CM went to visit the family and he was sent away from the house (quite rightly so) by the major's father who is grieved that nobody from the Kerala gov showed up till now.

I read at http://bangalorebuzz.blogspot.com/ that Sandeep had married his childhood friend and classmate Neha, but their relationship was strained. So he leaves behind his widowed wife too.


The picture shows the major's father as he stoically holds back his tears and helps his wife reach out to touch her only son for the last time. It's a picture that breaks your heart.

It is indeed a very sad day.

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Home They Brought Her Warrior Dead
- Alfred Lord Tennyson

Home they brought her warrior dead:
She nor swooned, nor uttered cry:
All her maidens, watching, said,
'She must weep or she will die.'
Then they praised him, soft and low,
Called him worthy to be loved,
Truest friend and noblest foe;
Yet she neither spoke nor moved.

Stole a maiden from her place,
Lightly to the warrior stepped,
Took the face-cloth from the face;
Yet she neither moved nor wept.

Rose a nurse of ninety years,
Set his child upon her knee--
Like summer tempest came her tears--
'Sweet my child, I live for thee.'

Face of terror-Mumbai under siege

21 year old Azam Amir Kasav walking around with a gun at CST station was one of the earliest images of the Mumbai terror attack. The picture was clicked by Sebastian D’souza, one of the Mumbai mirror reporters who had rushed to CST to get the details when he saw one of the two terrorists walking around at CST, spraying bullets at the people.

Ironically Azam Amir Kasav is also the most infamous with his pictures plastered across the web and the newspapers in relation with the Mumbai attacks as the face of terror. He holds the dubious distinction of being the only terrorist captured alive after the stand off. He has reportedly spilled the beans on the details and planning of the attack but more information is awaited. What’s interesting and unbelievable is that he now wants to be alive as reported in the Mumbai Mirror.

There are some images that are burnt into your consciousness long after the related events. This is definitely one of them.

Let’s hope we get all the evidence this time to build the most effective case against terrorism. Enough is enough.

Mumbai in mourning-Still reeling after the attacks

It has been the 3 most sad days for Mumbai. Terrorists attacked my beloved city and killed people indiscriminately. The first attacks started on Wednesday night and since then the body count has just been on the rise. All of us here at Mumbai are shocked, dazed, sad and very angry. This kind of terrorism has been happening to our Mumbai city over and over again. And still in spite of so many attacks we have never taken any harsh action against terrorism.

The news channels are reporting that the intelligence agencies were aware from many days now of suspicious activity. It is very sad that in spite of having prior information nothing was done to prevent this tragedy. Politicians do a lot of talking, there is a bit of discussions, huge reports are written and then all is forgotten.

I agree with what the panelists said that we need terror specialists in every city and a very effective crisis management in place. Also we need to have a separate court for dispensing justice in terrorist activities. The need of the hour is to make sure that we give the harshest punishment to terrorists. No one should ever terrorize us again.

Thankfully this time nobody praised the spirit and resilience of Mumbai city. And this is fittingly so because there is no so called spirit of Mumbai. The only spirit we were showing was because there was work to be done and so we always went back. But now we are tired of being abused and laid low in the manner by the cowards who attack us.

No one can understand the pain of a young child who lost both his parents or the pain of scores of people who have to now bury their dead after facing such an enormous tragedy themselves. We have lost the bravest officers and many people from all walks of life-rich and poor. The image of the Taj hotel burning is extremely traumatizing. These past nights have been the most harrowing time of our lives.

Please give the highest punishment to the people who have killed my Mumbai city. The common man is completely heart broken and cannot bear any more pain. May God give all of us here in Mumbai the courage to face this tragedy.

Maine Pyar Kiya - It's all about winning the parents

‘Maine Pyar Kiya’ is really a saccharine sweet movie from the late 80's. It was released sometime in 1989 to be precise. I remember the headline for the review of the movie by Khalid Mohammed in the Times of India was titled 'Vague Entertainment'. I didn’t know the meaning of vague then so I assumed that it should mean something good. Don’t ask me why I remember such nonsensical things but that’s how it is with me.

Anyway I digress from the main point which is that when the movie was released it became such a huge hit and a rage everywhere. Every girl wanted to be like the stunningly beautiful Bhagyashre. Young guys had a new idol to look upto-the lean-mean and overtly good looking Salman Khan.

Many girls stitched clothes like the simple salwar kameezes worn by Bhagyashree. What's really amazing about this diminutive actress is that she still looks as young as she did, 20 years ago. Of course the fact that she sacrificed everything and bid adieu to movies to set up her family on her husband's diktat (who didn’t approve her acting with other co stars) is probably the sweetest thing done in the name of love.

Salman of course went from strength to strength after this movie and he is what he is today. Our now famous comedian Raju Shrivastav I believe had a small character in MPK as a servant or something. The very talented and good looking Mohnish Behl (Nutan's son) got relegated to playing the bad guy in every role after this. Laxmikant Berde got stuck playing the hero's sidekick and unfortunately died a year or so back due to some health issues. Alok Nath and Reema Lagu continued to play the role of harried parents for another million years.

The one cute thing about Maine Pyar Kiya was that it brought friendship back into fashion (no... not the-i-dont-know-u but will u be my fren like on orkut) but the simple uncomplicated friendship that should be the basis for love. And that brings us to yet merchandise made popular by the movie-Friend caps. I didn’t purchase the ‘Friend’ cap though I saw it selling like hot cakes everywhere.

Dialogue time-
Ek ladka aur ke ladki kabhi dost nahi ho sakthe(Boy and gurl cannot stop at being frens)
Nahee ho sakthe hain, agar ladka ya tho ladki dono main se ek thakela ho(No they can still stop at being frens if one of them is a loser) Just kiddin :)

MPK started the trend of saaf suthra Barjatya family romances set in Wankhede stadium like houses with an assortment of servants. Kabootars got a new lease of life and suddenly love was in the air. Everyone appreciated the basic premise of the movie which is that you don’t need to elope for your romance; you can work it out and win your love and parental approval.

What simple times were those... I try and watch some scenes of MPK even today when the movie is telecast on some channel. It is interesting to see romance as it once was.

Priyanka and Kangana - Friendship bites the dust

So the other day I was reading this news article about a ugly spat between Priyanka Chopra and Kangana Ranuat. What seems to have transpired is that Kangana has not liked the fact that critics have praised Priyanka so much for her perfomance in Fashion, and the former seems to think the same.

Now this got me thinking as to how bold Kangana Ranuat really is.

I mean if one looks back the Ranaut girl seriously has guts and gumption to give Priyanka the cold shoulder. Its been hardly any time since she has come on the movie scene(albeit with scorching performances in gangster,metro and Woh Lamhe). But instead of blending into the spotlight she is giving Priyanka who is her senior in the industry all of the attitude she can muster in her little frame.

She even did not publicize 'Fashion' or pose together with Mugdha and Priyanka anywhere for the movie. I dont know what will be the outcome of all this but I sorta like her brash attitude of I-m-better-soidont-give-a-darn-abt u. But Kangana definitely needs a break from the messed up characters she plays.

On the other hand you can learn a lesson or two in positivity from Priyanka. She has had 4-5 major back to back flops till she got 'Fashion' and 'Dostana' but she still didnt lose her chirpiness along the way. She did admit that when Lovestory 2050 tanked at the box ofice, it did break her heart. Although it is still beyond me as to why she was expecting anything good out of the 2050 disaster. Her performance is pretty good in the second half of 'Fashion' leading to the ice cold vibes with her co star Kangana.

Another filmi dosti goes kaput.

'Zen stories to tell your neighbours'

I just finished reading 'Zen stories to tell your neighbours' and I must say that I enjoyed it very very much. It's got almost 50 stories along with their explanations and almost all of the stories are centred around philosophy.

Every story has a bunch of reactions from lay people as to what they thought about the story and its meaning. And that's what makes this collection so meaningful cause you have so many view points about the same fable that makes you smila and ponder
at the same time.

Here is one of the stories from that book-
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The Zen master Hakuin was praised by his neighbors as one living a pure life.

A beautiful Japanese girl whose parents owned a food store lived near him. Suddenly, without any warning, her parents discovered she was with child.

This made her parents very angry. She would not confess who the man was, but after much harassment at last named Hakuin.

In great anger the parents went to the master. "Is that so?" was all he would say.

When the child was born, the parents brought it to the Hakuin, who now was viewed as a pariah by the whole village. They demanded that he take care of the child since it was his responsibility. “Is that so?” Hakuin said calmly as he accepted the child.

A year later the girl-mother could stand it no longer. She told her parents the truth - that the real father of the child was a young man who worked in the fishmarket.

The mother and father of the girl at once went to Hakuin to ask his forgiveness, to apologize at length, and to get the child back again.

Hakuin was willing. In yielding the child, all he said was: "Is that so?"
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Please do download a copy of that book from the below link .
http://www.esnips.com/doc/a1a6acad-6a3f-42b5-ae2d-a551c818ea81/Zen-Stories-to-Tell-your-Neighbours-1

Its truly worth your time.

Mumbai Meri Jaan(translated 'I Heart Mumbai')

Mumbai-the land of opportunity, the city of a million dreams, hopes and fears. They say that once you come here, you can’t leave this place and it can’t get truer than that. The city’s inhabitants are mad about her. They love her; they hate her but just can’t help falling in love with her.

Mumbai as everyone knows wasn’t Mumbai so long ago. Bombay was rechristened to Mumbai in 1992 and most people know it by one name or the other. As Shakespeare said ‘What’s in a name?’-the new name hasn’t diminished its popularity one tiny bit.

The metropolis is a melting pot of so many cultures that no one person can lay claim to the city as their own. You have the Gujarathis, the Bengalis and the South Indians all conversing in the common language popularly known as ‘Mumbaiya Hindi’. It’s Hindi with a generous sprinkling of bindaas ‘bole tho’ tapori talk. The Mumbaiya Hindi is a mish-mash of popular terms from all the Indian languages to make up a very unique dialect.

The trains are the city’s lifeline ferrying millions of people to and fro. A typical morning in the city has its millions of office goers kick-starting their day with the general Olympics. The railways stations give you a ringside view of the myriad tests (read pushing, pulling, hanging on for dear life etc) that the common man has to face to reach his destination. There is a popular saying that you don’t need to iron your clothes, when you set out to travel in the local trains. The rush is so much that by the time you alight from the trains, your clothes are pretty much ironed out.

The ladies compartments in the trains throb with a life of their own, where you can see people do everything from knitting sweaters, cutting vegetables to catching up on the latest in their favorite Saas-Bahu drama. But the major fun starts if one lady jostles or pushes another lady by mistake. What ensues then is a free for all, with the warring ladies eventually involving all the onlookers in the verbal duel. Of course when the station arrives, the ladies get down and it’s just been another day in the life of Mumbai.

If there is one thing that’s a trademark of the city it is the ubiquitous vadapau. This humble dish is one thing that’s filling as well as a staple diet of most people on the move. It’s been consistent in its position on the people’s popularity charts retaining its humble ‘avatar’ through the years.

The night life of Mumbai is very famous and truly lives up to the adage ‘the city that never sleeps’. So come nightfall, you have the party animals frequenting the very happening clubs, lounges and impromptu ‘Page 3’ parties. You learn a thing or two about energy levels from people who sometimes attend as much as 2-3 parties in a night and still not call it a day.

There is no denying that there is a gaping class difference amongst the city’s populace. The affluence of Pali Hill bears a striking contrast to the depravity of the largest slum in Asia-Dharavi. Finding a home in this concrete jungle is very difficult so most people end up living in cramped quarters that could barely qualify as houses. Everything is borne with a smile on the face in the hope that one day they will earn enough moolah to own a decent accommodation in the city.

It’s said in Africa when dawn breaks out, every animal is running-from the king of the jungle to the smallest creature-it’s the basic rule of the jungle. The aforesaid example so aptly describes the madness of Mumbai-a concrete jungle where the only thing that matters is the survival of the fittest. If you have to describe Mumbai in a word it would be ‘fast’. Here people have so much to do and so little time, that life is just a never ending race against time.

The magic of Mumbai is an undeniable element that attracts people from all over the country. Once you reach here, you become a Mumbaiite forever. Everyday thousands of people land here clutching on to their hopes of making it big. Life here is tough but its one hell of a joyride. As the famous Hindi number goes, “Ae dil hain mushkil jeena yahan, zara hatke, zara bachke, yeh hai Bombay meri jaan”.

Kabhi alvida na kehna - A love hate list

Today I watched “Kabhi alvida na kehna” which is another one of Karan Johar’s lavishly created movies. I had hated it immensely the first time when I had seen it two years back.

This time around I guess I was really paying a lot of attention ‘cause I happened to notice that somewhere in the middle of this messy story, there are some very meaningful lines like these-

• If you don’t go searching for love, you won’t find it.
• What kind of love are you searching for; the kind that exists in good books and bad films?
• Sometimes marriage takes the place of love and then there is no room for love left
• You are nothing but a wafadaar jamadaar and so on….

KJo wanted to make a movie on extra marital affairs but somehow he forgot to flesh out the main characters. The end result being that the audience liked the other couple (Abhishek and Preity) more than Rani and Shahrukh which did not bode well for the movie.

Rani’s character is pretty warped up which explains why she liked Dev(Shahrukh) who is nothing but a big pain (in the **). Preity does not get into her element till the closing of the film when her character realizes the truth after which she takes her hubby to task and how. Abhishek was just a prop (why did he sign this movie?) while Shahrukh got all the best dialogues (which were few). King Khan as usual went overboard and hammed all over the place which should have been prevented.

Now a list of my top love-hate reasons for KANK-
• I love the song ‘Mitwa’ and its beat and the way the singer has sung it makes the song very special for me. I loved the feelings of happiness and enjoyment that the two central characters are shown to be having in the Mitwa song. It was almost as if their inner happy self had found its way outside.

• I loved the New York background and beautiful locations used throughout the movie. I fell in love with each of the locations that Kjo has taken us to and I thank him for that. I hope KJo writes a post on his blog as to why he loves New York so much.

• I loved the color blue for Rani as the outfits in that color made her look like a dream. Rani looks a vision in all the sarees she has worn which suit her way more than any western outfit. BTW the dress designer for the movie did a very good job as everyone looks their best throughout the flick.

• I hated the fact that the movie was neither here nor there. At times the actors themselves don’t look much convinced about their characters and the dialogues but are doing it nonetheless.

• I hate that there were no dialogues that tickle you something on the lines of ‘Kal ho na ho’ which was a serious movie peppered with very humorous dialogues-why couldn’t we have had something like that in KANK?

• I loved the small things that Karan tried to show-chiefly the fact that you could have the best looking guy/gal as your husband/wife but the marriage will suck(if there is no chemistry) and no one will know that except the people involved.

• I loved Amitabh’s dialogue at the dinner table when he sees through Shahrukh’s character. Also the time when he asks for a drink at the ballet scene when he sees the foursome trade barbs at their messed up lives.

• I loved the way Abhishek screams at Rani after discovering her infidelity. I mean if he hadn’t done that I wouldn’t have believed his good-goody character any more and boy was I fed up of his pati-parmeshwar act.

• I loved Preity’s reaction when her philandering husband confesses to her about his affair. She slaps him and asks him to leave which was like wow-a breath of fresh air to see a modern women reacting the way she should and quite appropriately.

• I love the underlying theme of the movie that if you don’t love someone, don’t be stuck in that just for the relation’s sake. Go on and liberate yourself and your partner.

‘Kabhi alvida na kehna’ means don’t say Good bye and I have to quote Richard Bach here because I think his lines make plenty of sense in this reference-
Dont be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can
meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for
those who are friends.

India's moon mission is a success!!!

India's moon mission is an outstanding success. Sometime after 8.30 p.m today, the MIP probe painted with the Indian tricolor landed on the moon!!!

What is amazing is the fact that India has achieved this at a fraction of the cost at which other countries have done their similar space missions.

India rocks on children's day with its success sending all of us Indians literally over the moon.

The spirit of Shahrukh Khan-the Actor rocks!!!

Shahrukh Khan is unparalleled in his devotion to his work and cinema. I was watching the trailor of his latest movie, 'Rab ne bana di jodi' and could'nt help but notice that he has aged a bit. I mean that shoul'nt be odd as he has been around for so long. But he is an icon for all that he has accomplished in all these years.

Shahrukh loves to talk about his movies, about life and about anything that the audience wants to know about him which is evident in all the interviews he gives to the magazines. There are many qualities of his which have made him the heart throb of a generations. But one very very inspiring and little know fact about Shahrukh khan is his never-say-die spirit.

I read a short bio about him in which he talks about the death of his father and mother and how that one incident affected his family profoundly. His sister became very unwell and never quite recevered and Shahrukh says that at that very painful moment in his life he had 2 options-Either perish and go down or to fight back and win in life and he chose the 2nd option. The King Khan's life is the most amazing success story ever which people will only come to know of whne they see the man behind the persona on screen.

The only grouse against Shahrukh is that the actor in him sometimes goes overborad and he tends to ham which is not all that good. He is the quintessential 'always-stealing-thegurl-from-someone-else' romantic hero and it is this role which suits him the best though he has tried to do other kinds of movies with moderate success. No other jodi has ever had the kind of success that the Shahrukh-Kajol combo has had at the silver screen.

All said and done, he is India's most favourite actor. I hope he succeeds and continues to entertain India for many many years.

The Zahir--Paulo Coelho

Love is the history of a woman's life; it is an episode in man's.
---Germaine De Stael
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“The Zahir” is a bad book. Period.

It had a very interesting premise which has been executed very badly as the story progresses. The reader is introduced to a marriage of ten years, torn asunder by the sudden disappearance of the wife. The husband has numerous questions about the disappearance of his wife, who has left without any explanations and these questions turn into a "Zahir” or an obsession for the author.

Take it from me except the plot outlined above, there is hardly anything interesting in the book. To put it simply, the book is a drag.

The whole story or the lack of any sense further in the plot has to be read, to be disbelieved. Granted that the author has written other good books like The Alchemist, Veronica decides to die etc. But with Zahir, the author has committed a huge mistake. Throughout the book, the one dominant theme is that of an egoistic author talking about himself, his achievements and the narcissism is just too much for the reader to bear.

The protagonist of the book is none other than the author Paul Coelho himself although he does not admit to the fact out rightly, it is left to the reader to "read between the lines".

As the story progresses, Coelho(the husband) hams about his new celebrity author life style in which he has plenty of money, fame, respect but he still feels lonely inspite of all the adulation. His wife or rather his 2nd or 3rd wife in the book, Esther is a war correspondent is frustrated with her husband who hardly has any time or feelings for her anymore. One day she gets fed up and sets off leaving a trail of strange clues behind. And then the husband starts searching for her since now he understands that she was an integral part of his life. Sheesh! Why do people always realize when it’s too late? But then again you don’t sympathize or understand the protagonist of the story because he starts having random affairs with other women while searching for his wife, how strange/putting off is that?

While searching for his wife, he meets these spiritual, mystical people from the Steppes including his wife’s so called lover, Mickail. Mickail takes him into various private meetings and a lot of humbug spiritual enlightment situations that will bore you to tears. By the end of the book or rather with more than 100 pages still left, you start getting frustrated and kinda identify with the wife who must have got similarly fed up of her good-for-nothing husband-the author.

Coelho also does not let go of the opportunity to express his views on Christianity and his disbelief about certain things associated and the book simply serves him as a convenient, secret platform to express his views. It would be nice if Paulo Coelho sticks to writing stories like ‘The Alchemist’ instead of selling his autobiography/personal opinions to the public in the guise of a spiritual enlightenment book

I don't like being a non conformist but I don't understand as to why people praise something when they just don’t get it. If you read the book and think that there is some deeper meaning, forget it. There is no deep thinking needed at all unlike "The Alchemist" in which there was a lot of hidden meaning in the fable.

Take my advice and read the above review three times but do not venture out to get "The Zahir" because the book is a huge waste of everyone’s precious time. I didn't even buy the book, just took it from the library for 25 bucks as reading charges and I am venting, so you can understand how disappointing the book was. You have been warned.

Prayer-Simply talk to Jesus

“Come to me all who you who are weary and find life burdensome, I will refresh you. Take my yoke upon your shoulders and learn from me: For I am gentle and humble of heart. Your souls will find rest” (Mt.11:28-29).

Jesus wants to come into our lives and for this he enlists the help of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit creates situations in our lives whereby we have to, someday or the other, turn to Jesus. In fact from the moment that we were born and all the way up to our adulthood, Jesus has been eyeing us and waiting for an opportunity to speak to us. Prayer provides that medium whereby we can talk to Him without any inhibitions. “The Father will give you whatever you ask of Him in my name” (John 15:16).

Prayer is your personal chat to God. He does not want you to meaninglessly babble lines in the form of long prayers if your heart is simply not there, in what you are saying. Rather He likes it when you have a simple heart to heart talk to Him. God does not want only your spiritual side but he also wants you to share your problems, your sadness, and your happiness with him. The Word of God says, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to you” (1 Peter 5:7).

It is said in the Bible that God knows all your heart’s desires and wants even before you express it. However He likes it when we ask for something specifically because only then we will realize what we want and be happy and thankful when God grants our wishes.
Also if possible try and intercede for others in your prayers. Jesus likes it when we pray for others and we will gradually realize that our own prayers have been answered.

Many people assume that prayers are simply a way of asking for things or discussing your aspirations to God. But prayer is much more than that. You can praise Jesus with all you heart when you pray and He will be much pleased. There are many retreats and special prayers held in our churches where you can praise Jesus at the top of your voice. Your Father in heaven will be very happy to know that you like him so much. The Scripture says, “Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done” (Philippians 4:6, 7)

Remember to ask Jesus to send the Holy Spirit’s anointing on you. Jesus will send the Spirit’s help especially to the people affected by the evil charms of the Devil. We must remember that the Holy Spirit can easily defeat the unwanted Devil and end his tyranny on the people.

When you want to pray, try to choose a place where there is very little disturbance. Even when Jesus wanted to pray he left his house and his followers and retreated to the top of the mountains so that he could talk to His father in private. Although we lead busy harried lives if we can find some time in our busy schedule to talk to God, we will feel instantly refreshed. Moreover Jesus is waiting to continue the conversations with you through the words of the Bible.

The Bible provides us with all the answers to questions that we didn’t even know how to ask in the first place. If possible we should try and read at least one passage from the Bible daily. The passages of the Holy word are filled with inspiration and knowledge to renew our broken spirits. The Bible can help us build more trust in Him and also the Holy word is like a counselor who is 24/7 for your help. The proverbs chapter especially has a ton of useful sayings that help us follow the right path in our life.

The Bible has more than 50 promises by the Lord our God, made to us on different occasions. He has said, “I give you My word. If you are ready to believe that you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer, it shall be done for you. When you stand to pray, forgive anyone against whom you have a grievance, so that your heavenly father may in turn forgive you your faults” (Mk. 11:24, 25).

Prayer is like a game of chess played between Jesus and you. The game of chess can only be played between two people and with the utmost concentration and dedication. Similarly Jesus will make the first move towards us but he also expects us to continue the game by our second move. He will verify our dedication and our determination by putting us to the test. If we get fed up and not respond to him, he will not be able to help us. But His rewards are great for people who adore him and stay true to his ways.

Moreover there are many times when we are so overcome with the troubles of our life that instead of prayers, only tears flow unabashedly from our eyes. In such situations we feel sad that we have not been able to pray to Him. But God understands that our tears are also a kind of prayer-liquid prayer. Also it’s good to remember that when a person with a pure heart weeps, even God stops and listens to his pleas.

Jesus has promised us wonderfully of his help with these immortal words, “Ask and you shall receive, search and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you”. If we want something and we feel that we truly deserve to get it, we just have to ask for it from our Father in heaven. Jesus has said, “If you ask something in my name from the Father, it will be surely given to you”.

Finally when you pray, do not hope for instant gratification. The Lord has His time when he will reveal the plans he has in mind for you. Your current wish may/may not be in line with those plans so pray but let Him take the final decision on whether you should get what you want.

Talk to Jesus as soon as you can. He is your best friend and he is waiting to hear from you. Remember what He has promised us, “I will never turn away anyone who comes to me” (John 6:37).